i'm upset now.
all i wanted was for u to wash the dish as i had to cook.
and i didn't want to wait till after dinner to wash the pots,
as there wouldn't be place to wash the rest of the dishes later.
if i forced u,
i'm sorry.
i thought u wanted to help.
guess i was wrong.

i can't stand it.
why can ppl be nice to ppl the are not close with,
and yet,
treat those that are close worse.
do u understand that we feel unappreciated and unwanted.
i don't like this feeling at all.

I DON'T!

"Angels Or Devils"

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

when we talked,
when u responded with just noises....
it just irritates me.

i'm disappointed..
because i expected too much.

i thought i could hear words of encouragement..
all i got was.. "uuh~~"
i thought i could hear words of love...
all i got again was.. "uuh~~"
i thought i could lean on u, whom i felt was my pillar of strength..
all i got in my head from all those"uuh~~" was.. "uh?"

i don't know. @_@

when i need encouragement..
all i was seeking was not encouragement from others,
i was seeking it from you.

why?
because who wouldn't want to see and hear from the ones we love when we feel our lowest and stressful periods?
isn't it a walk together that makes a couple?
aren't we suppose to encourage one another, cheer each other?

if friends can do it..
i seriously wonder why can't u..
or rather, why won't u.

i'd never know that answer,
because only u would know that answer deep in ur heart.
ONLY U WILL KNOW,
because i'm always standing at your front door knocking for the door to be opened.
u've let me thru the gates, but as long as the door doesn't open,
i'll never be a part of ur world.

i'm sad, who wouldn't be?
maybe i'm just too emo.
but it doesn't mean u shud not care,
it means u shud try to do ur part.

Blog skin's finally done up!
All thanks to TKB.. hehe.
this is gonna be really short..
coz i got project to do while i am having my holidays!
sigh. best is my other frens don't have to do it!!!!
argh. yelp!

some lovin' of me and tkb.. hee!

happened to find this song in my hp..
i kind of like it.. and somehow..
i wish nothing i had would be destroyed and i hope u'll understand..
I wish you would be there.. till the end.
what happened to all we talked about in the past?
i hope those weren't empty talks.
my heart hurts but it is healing..
fear of u leaving.. seeing ur shadow fade.
I don't want it happening at all.


BEYONCE - “IF I WERE A BOY” LYRICS

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wated
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I could turn off my phone
Tell evveryone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

(Chorus)

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

(Chorus)

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

Lets see. today i finally have time to start a new blog!
onto what happened today...

Today was tough.

it was tough having not to speak at all.

has anyone tried doing group project with no voice?

i felt like a mute...dat does nt know sign language.

muahaha.

anyway thank God we were in the library.

so i tried whispering. and it was successful. YAY!

lesson of the day:
Happiness is...
Finding Wisdom & understanding.

August 2007
November 2009
December 2009
April 2010
May 2010


Heidi
Credits: